Below are the 11 most recent journal entries recorded in shake_some's LiveJournal:

Monday, January 17th, 2005
3:27 pm	Poor poor neglected journal... I still love you and will fill you in on my happenings perhapps tomorrow. (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 14th, 2004
7:38 pm	i feel my heart implode How can he be so attached to the one that wrecked everything? How he could give up what we had for her? someone who doesnt and never will mean as much to him? i dont understand. It's just like it was, but like, with that awkwardness waving around the whole time... i can't wait till everything ends (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, July 12th, 2004
6:22 pm	i havent updated my poor neglected journal in what seems like years, but upon review about 5 minutes ago its only been a little over a month. so instead of making this entry all depressing by saying whats really on my mind i'm just going to say that it's all been really great on the surface lately which i gues is better than nothing. so not to bore you with what i have been doing with myself this whole time i'm just going to leave it with that - its all been really great on the surface lately. i also have to say how cool </b></a>kissfactory is. my my that's a cool girl right there if i ever did come across one. what a nice young lady. and THANKS to everyone who replied to my last post. it makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 8th, 2004
8:09 pm	is it better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all? You know that saying, 'you don't know what you've got till it's gone'. my thoughts on that are kinda all over the place on that one. So is it worse to not know what you've got till it's gone.... or to know damn right well what you've got and not taking full advantage of it then it going? (26 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 2nd, 2004
3:05 pm	but, where is wally? Hello journal, long time,no see. What can i say. a girl like me, a world like this. Ha, my parents dont know whats wrong with me. my mediaction is doing shit. whats the point of popping pills every morning if theres no change. On the plus side of life, im gonna get the booty. Which is always fun, so cool. Love is tender, and so is his touch. if only his tender touch was loving, then things would be alot better. My social life is so-so, i supose it's expected though. People just dont understand. even my psychiatrist doesnt understand. she tries to tell me she does, but i know the truth, i wish i could read her note book, i want to know what she really thinks. The sun was shinning today. i love it when it warms me skin. im a busy girl, but i'll try and be back asap oh and i'll let you know about the baby next time, if there still is a baby..... see ya tamara (Comment on this)
Friday, May 21st, 2004
6:19 pm	Come into my living room, and let me take all your clothes off you keep on giving me the hold up you know I wish you'd make your mind up cuz when we get it on, you're so-so you used to be my romeo cuz you see my dear, I have, had enough of keeping quiet about all this stuff you're neurotic like a yo-yo you used to be my romeo Why doesn't anyone understand me? I feel so fake when i'm around them like i have to put on a happy face just so they wont be concerned. My ex boyfriend had "problems" with me they were his 'little problems', 'down stairs' if you get what i mean... And now i just found out that he has the same 'problem' with other girls and my friend and i think it is absolutely hilarious but no one else gets it. He must feel like such a loser... ahh well, serves him right for being cocky, haha not the right word to use in this case... See ya Tamara! (2 Comments |Comment on this)
6:12 pm	*I dont belong here* (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 19th, 2004
2:07 pm	why not? i'm so alone! i dont like being depressed, it annoys me. Can't i just be happy today? I got my hip bone stuck under the table. I want a snickers. That's the kind of snickers i want. (8 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, May 14th, 2004
10:00 am	CRAP!!! Hello journal, History wasn't as successful as i'd hoped. What will i do with myself? He knows he needs me. I just want to feel his soft caress again. push himself up on me against a wall and kiss me. but i guess that's just never gonna happen again. unless i give up two very important things in my life. life bites big ass. one i've lost and gained a friend, and two i'm torn between two of my passions. but i have to live with my mistakes. i just hope that no-one is going to be an asshole and spill the beans on past instances, and mistakes. it hurts but oh well. it's my own fault. in other news i have other people shoving their problems at me expecting me to help but i can't, well i shouldn't. but i am anyway. i need to help even if it gets me burnt, like toast. i just don't know what to say to them yet. that and my best friend is really not being what she should for me. does she still care? is it just me? am i so absorbed in my own flirtatious life to even bother to spend time with the one person who has stuck by me? well she hasn't really now has she! no instead when i'm in need and anyone with half a brain or heart can figure it out, she just stands back and walks out on me. i have to fight back tears and confide in my other only recent friends. damn it!!! but i won't complain because whatever it is that's biting me in the ass must be karma. paying me back for all the fucked up shit that i've put everyone else through over the years. at least i know i can count on two of my best new friends ever. they're sitting here with me reading over my shoulder. They're not always happy like i try to be, but they listen and like me for who i am, i think. I'm done. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 11th, 2004
1:46 pm	"him" Hello journal, I saw "him" today. Each day gets harder and harder. But with a bit of luck, i'll learn how to deal with seeing "him", hopefully. My friends think im pathetic, i dont have anyone to talk to anymore. no-one. this journal will be my new friend. i just need someone to listen, someone to be there, someone... I know deep down that we're ment to be. "he'll" see. I'm longing for when our time will come. We had a moment the other day, thanks to history. Mr.H split the class into pairs, and by and act of fate, we were brought together. "him" and i, together again. It was horrible at first. We shared so many awkward moments, but as the class progressed it began to remind me of past times. It was clear that our bond was strengthening. But then the bitch of a bell went. Next history class shall be interesting. see you Tamara (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, May 8th, 2004
2:29 pm	The start of something awesome So this is my first entry... Hello Journal. My name is Tamara. Once i know how to work this bastard, i'll be rockin these pages like you wouldnt believe. I'll be back. See ya Tamara! Current Mood: excited Current Music: Ozzy Osbourne - Get me through (1 Comment |Comment on this)